“The more we love, the more God exists” Peter Rollins
For those who may be uncomfortable with the above quote, I apologize. Not because it makes you uncomfortable, but rather that it does so at all. Understanding the depths of what it means to love each other here on this Earth, and how much that love will impact the will of God, takes courage. Over the last year of my life I have had a chance to experience what Pete meant by this quote and I’m overjoyed to share this with all of you.
Last Saturday my boyfriend, Brad, proposed to me. I said yes. I am so very blessed. God is so very good.
And so, it is worth looking at why I attribute goodness to God. It is not because over the last year He has appeared to me – cash in hand – when financial relief was needed, or because He sent an angel to hold me close when I was certain death was my only option in the face of Matt’s own. Rather, God aroused the Spirit within each of you. In the people at my church, at my work … my family and friends … and, at times, even in strangers. He even aroused the Spirit within those in my life who wouldn’t attribute their acts of love to Christ.
God aroused the Spirit in Brad. Brad has listened, been patient, been faithful, and been a true Christ follower in his venture to follow his heart and capture mine. There were moments when we first started dating, and my own wounds were still so fresh, that just his presence brought me the kind of comfort I’ve only ever felt in the presence of Jesus. He was walking as Christ was calling him to.
There have been moments in my life where God has physically shown up, relieved me, held me, and comforted me. If the people given to me in my life over the last year, including Brad, had been absent I don’t doubt the power of God to provide the same blessings we have received. I am, however, fully convinced that the Spirit that dwells within each of us is a vital lifeline to those around us. Do not shy away from the prompting to love one another, even in the most difficult of circumstances, because we simply cannot know our part in God’s will for others.
I am so excited to marry Brad. I am so excited to continue to heal and grow as a family, with him by our side. And I am continually and forever grateful for those of you who have reached out, in love, to my family and me. We love you.